xu3ba1's Diaryland Diary

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Ok...decided today to update my blog over here...

hm...let's first provide a major update on myself, i.e. update on major events:

1. I'm still working with People's Association as a Helpdesk operator.

2. I have been rejected by a girl i like for more than half a year, two saturdays ago.

Ok, now let me elaborate on the above three updates:

1. Ok, for those people who did not know, i have been working for People's Association as a Heldpesk Operator since the start of April till now, and i would end my stint there at the end of this month, June. In other words, i will be working for this organisation for a whole three months. Well, for those people who have never done a Helpdesk job, here a little intro to the job scope:

You are required to pick up calls that relates to the area of help you are providing, and assist them. You are also required to read emails that are sent to the Helpdesk email account, and similarly, provide assistance to them. Simple job? Not really, considering you are required to take the complaints where the public customer just calls in and start blabbering about something he/she is not happy about. Point to note: The complaint usually are NOWHERE NEAR your area of assistance. OF course, with the above being the down side of the job, you will also have the up side of the job: Customers who are really nice and thank you everytime you assist them. When you feel that they are thanking you from the bottom of their hearts, it's heart-warming.

In other words, in this job as a Helpdesk Operator, your emotions usually take roller-coaster rides.

2. Now, for the para that most of you will be interested in: The Rejection.
Oh well, what can i say? Just put it this way, i like a girl for the past six months. After much consultation from both my friends in the actual world and the cyberworld, i decided to confess my liking for her. As mentioned above, i got rejected. Now, allow me to explain a little on this portion. Firstly, i must say that before i confessed, i was most certain that i would be rejected by her. Why? Cos she has been giving me hints that she treat me like a normal friend. Now you will ask: in this case, why would you want to confess? My answer to that is plain simple: cos my heart would not give up completely if i did not hear the words from her directly. Stupid excuse? I'm that stupid. In this light, i had a mixture of feelings when she rejected me. I was disappointed because i was rejected, now that's normal. However, at the same time, i was feeling well...relieved. Cos now i can give up completely on the hope of having a closer relationship with the girl.
In other words, i was feeling disappointed yet relieved/happy when she rejected me. Weird feelings wasn't it?

You may think that this rejection possesses a negative impact on my life. I guess this may not be true.

Well, in the short term, of course it would be a negative impact. Cos my heart has been hurting everyday for the passed one week plus. Moreover, the pain worsened every night after the lights went off. It was bad, extremely bad.

However, in the long run, i guess this rejection will have a positive impact on my life. How so? This rejection has allowed me to know more about myself. Finally, i knew that i could not give up on a girl in a short period of time, even after she has rejected me straight.

Interesting life i have, don't i? hahaha....

6:26 p.m. - 2007-06-20

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